Her

I don't know if i write this, i am right or not. Maybe people will think i am crazy or selfish or maybe for some eastern people i am insolent. But i really can't stand anymore with HER.

She, i know, try to do all things nice to me. She think about me and my life. She care with me. She want me to be happy, or anything nice things like that. But she forgot how to be a good wife, good mother, and good person.

In the other side, she take control of everything in this house. Still okay if her control is right decision. But, she always made a bad decision. In some cases, i know and i am grateful for everything she did to me. She allow me to go to club, she allow me to go travelling, etc. But, I regret so much that i can't have my own life normally just because of her. 

I can't have my normal house, can't have a normal family, can't have a normal habit, can't choose what job i like, even can't simply choose my own little step. Just because of her. 

I feel like crying when i see how she act to us, how she can be so cruel, so strong, so selfish to this life.

But, i hope, give up is none in my dictionary.

I need to make a clear borderline, how i have to respect her, but she is who she is and i am who i am.

Keep trying..

Keep going..

I can...