April Story

Someone is telling me that he's gonna settle down.

For me, 'settle down' is something quite bombastic word to describe someone's change. It seems so extreme, like change direction from north to south, or west to east. When i heard about that word, i think about someone who wants to get married, maybe he/she had a crazy life before, then they left all their past behind and start a new life to build a family with his partner.

But in his mind, even he is not gonna married in the near future, he is going to settle down. Which means that he'll gonna concern more for his relationship. He's not gonna left all his life behind -like in my bombastic mind when i heard that word-. But he is trying to balance and make a clear priority. That he's gonna value his relationship more.

Maybe he's not going from north to south directly, but to southeast or southwest. What i called it in my dictionary? Hmm.. maybe being a lil more serious, more committed to their relationship? Whatever. I already got the main point of his thinking.

And that was my Hun...

I was a lil bit upset before when we had an argue. Feeling so sad for our fighting, also for our argue's topic. And i don't think that Hun is going to say like that. Actually i feel very happy. So glad. Not just an ordinary glad i ever wrote here before. Maybe this feeling is called feeling safe and secure.

I appreciate so much this Hun's confession. Thank you for thinking, considering, and deciding this thing. I feel a lil upset before, but i consider and realize that when you already decide, it means you are really sure with what are you doing. A single-processor boy with so many things in his head and he is trying to do his best. Not only for me. But he also need to value other people beside him. I don't want to imprison ourself. I still want Hun or me doing our things. I still want him can express his life. Cos that's why i fell in love with him. But after he said like that, i'm sure now even he is doing his things, sure he knows what is he doing

Today is Palm Sunday and we went to the church together.

For us, these days we also note about Qing-Ming day. It's a chinese culture, a month to remember our family who already passed away. I helped Hun to do a pray for his family today. Hard to desctibe my feeling, but clear i know i feel good to do that. Moreover, i am happy that Hun allow me to do that. Allow me to know and pray for his mom, his dad, and his brother.

I'm praying for our relationship. To be blessed. To be reminded to value each other effort, and we're not gonna stop to learn or understand each other.

Thanks God for today.