Showing posts with label Thinking Travel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thinking Travel. Show all posts

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Hati yang Tertinggal

Melayang selintas angan, tak terukur perih di hati
Seberapa sesak rasa yang ada, ketika hati harus memilih
Tgg jwb di dalam hidup

Tertiup angin kenangan, membawa ku ke masa itu
Selalu terbayang akan manisnya masa ku bersama
Tak dapat kubayangkan, bagaimana kalian akan melewatinya sendiri

Ragaku terbang jauh, tapi hatiku tak pernah pergi
Kuhaturkan maafku dari dalam lubuk hatiku, ku tak dapat menyelesaikan menemani perjalanan ini

Tak terbalas kasih kalian padaku
Hanya hormat, dan bakti yang dapat kubalas dalam hidup ini

Doaku selalu bersama kalian
Semoga hidup ini diberikan kemudahan dalam penyertaanNya
Amin

17.08.2014
03.40 AM
KLIA-2 International Airport
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Bored Bored Bored

Untuk kesekian kalinya.......

*It's been soooooooooo long since my last post :p , and nothing new or HOT stuff yang aku tulis di sini... Hehehe..

Hari ini, nggak tahu kenapa...tapi rasanya nggak mooooood bangetttttt... Padahal kerjaan gambar rumah juga masih numpuk... x_x...borreeedddddddd....for just doing my routinity which is pointless and just going nowhere. Apa ya semua orang sebenernya juga mengalami dan melakukan hal yang sama ya? Trus trading world nya pusingg....

Btw, semoga tetep selalu be happy myself, tetep semangat, never give up (yg selalu jd slogan dr dulu n bisa ngmgin org lain kyk gt lho padahal... :D), and be grateful for everything ^^.... *amen*

Taon ini kan target jadi successful trader hahahaha...
Semangat wes, semangat !! v/^o^\v










Btw, sometimes i forgot, that writing can really release my stress in my mind... harus digalakkan blogging !!

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Anyway, i looked at my old post : 30-Nov-2012.... which maybe have the same feeling..... ...
Quote that post :
Oke, sekarang mikirin yang lebih riil aja, apa sih yang pengen aku tuju dalam hidup? Aku harus jadi apa ya sama Hun?
- Successfull couple trader (woo...)
- Baru aja berasa suka masak --> enjoying life being chef (hohoho...) --> harus rajin masak? atau start les masak?
- Traveler's writer --> CORET, karena kere nggak punya uang buat jalan-jalan, apanya yang mau ditulis..
- Woman racer or couple racer... hohoho...bayangin aja keren.. wkwkwk


Already passed 6 months, and the reality are.........................
- Successfull trader --> NOT YET !!! Yang ada malah LOST.. huhuhu.... belajar terusss....
- Cooking things ---> Kepengen les / kuliah masak..... tapi gada waktunyaaa... huhuhu... gimana ya? apa harus diterusin maksa nih....?
- Writer --> Yang ada dari januari - mei males nulis....hahahaha sekarang aja baru kepengen nulis lagi... yang rajin donkkk...
- Racer things --> Ga ada ambune wesan.... (this is javanese language... --> do translate to understand it..haha)..

Wes, pokoke semangat lah !!!


Saturday, January 19, 2013

Dewasa Vs Me

Tanda Kedewasaan

1. Seorg dewasa tdk memikirkan yg enak bagi dirinya, namun memikirkan bagaimana kehidupannya dapat berarti.
2. Seorg dewasa tdk dikendalikan oleh suasana hatinya, namun komitmen imannya.
3. Seorg dewasa dapat berkata TIDAK.
4. Seorg dewasa tdk hanya terfokus pada haknya namun pada tanggung jawabnya.
5. Seorg dewasa bukan mengerjakan hanya yg disukai, namun menyukai semua yg dikerjakan.
6. Seorg dewasa tdk berpikiran pendek, namun berpikiran jauh kedepan.
7. Seorg dewasa selalu mau belajar dan mau berjuang serta berkorban

Wew.......
Itu postingan dari salah seorang temen di fb...... bagus banget sih... bisa jadi mikir.... gimana kenyataannya sama diriku ??...

1. Seringnya memikirkan gimana hidup jadi enak n bahagia aja.
2. Seringnya marah2 ga jelas kalo lagi bad mood.. x-x
3. Kadang-kadang....sungkanan sama orang lain..
4. Kadang-kadang,..... lebih ingat hak dulu drpd tanggung jawab.... nggak sesuai banget sama salah satu sila di Pancasila... (PMP jaman SD haha)
5. Seringnya milih-milih yang dikerjain yang disukai, kalo gak gitu sering nggerundel gak jelas.
6. Kalo ini sih, Hun aja seringnya bilang mah kejauhan hahahaha
7. Kalo ini jg, harus mau !! (",)

Jadii.......aku sudah termasuk dewasa belom ya...? wkwkwkwkw and how bout u all..? :)

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Old times....

Doing my working stuff -CAD project- alone, and playin' some slow musics, just like the old times, when i'm still in college....always wake my mellow side up...
Make me thinking...and thinking.... about old times in college's studio, with my old best friends, we were always doing crazy things to laugh together, doing our DOZEN tasks and assignment together with less sleep or even not sleep (!!), listen to one of us who was crying for our love stuff :p.....

Days filled with in front of laptop, paper,...printer,,...and dozens of food.. haha..

**

The situation of our studio which is always crowded, and fun......i miss that....when we just concentrate for our project together....whole day....
UKP....how i miss the old times.....
Do this feeling just happenned for architecture student? Which is maybe take more and more "patriotism" to our campus, to always have a dozen dozen and DOZEN tasks ! Or maybe all faculty feels like that too yaa...

I found my old photos !!! this was our studio, but not enough to capture all..

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It's already passed 8 years since my first step to UKP, and just 3-4 years since we graduate. But, really feels that everything is not the same anymore. Everybody has their own life, and maybe we just can't get back as fun as we were. (But, some bestie still the same :))

So tired till im sleeping :p
Me and bestie Lia in her house... i forgot what were we doing hahaha...

4 of us... miss that time xoxo...

Our bbq time
Me and bestie Kattie....

Do i am too mellow? Too melancholic? I dunno. Haha.

Well, while writing this, i feel......

Alone.
Hungry.
Tired.
In my office.
Doing CAD works' stuff.
while....
Listen to some old songs.
and...

waiting my KFC delivery come.. haha...

Friday, November 30, 2012

Pursuit of Happiness

Wah..udah lamaaaa banget nggak nulis blog pake bahasa indo..hehe.. (sok internasionil bangetl nih ceritanya...), jadi kangen menulis pemikiran-pemikiranku yang lebay dan agak gilaaaa dengan lebih cespleng. Hehe..

Akhir-akhir ini aku seriiing banget mikirin tentang diriku. Udah umur berapa lah, mau jadi apa lah, apa aja yang udah happenning in my life lah, udah bisa apa lah sekarang..dan hal hal sebangsa dan setanah airnya itu lah. Apalagi kalau orang sekitar kita udah pada mulai berubah atau udah berubah menjadi 'seseorang'.  Entah some new life chapter, atau new job and working ideas, and so on.

Contoh nih,  pas habis ngelihat temen baikku merit, hati jadi sedikit mencelos 'nyesss...'.. Yah, kapan yah aku... trus temen yang lain juga pada tunangan, dst dst... Atau pas habis ngelihat temen yang lain, sukses sama kerjaanya, hati pun juga jd nguing-nguing ... 'Halooooo....kamu sendiri sekarang udah jadi apaaa? Udah sukses belom? Udah bisa apa?'.. Apalagi kemarin-kemarin pas hari galau', kepala tambah mumett aja isinya, mikirrrr terus yang bukan bukan deh.

Tapi mungkin memang perlu juga suatu fase seperti itu ya, supaya kita bisa lebih memaknai hidup dan apa yang kita punya sekarang...Kayak sekarang gini waktu pikiran udah lumayan jernih sehabis melanglang buana kemana-mana, baru bisa melihat dengan cakrawala baru, bahwa hidup nggak cuma melulu isinya harus seperti yang aku mau.

Ternyata masih ada buanyakkk alasan untuk aku feel grateful and harus grateful. Kalo aku masih diomeli sama ortu atau masih ribet aja ngurusi ortu, berarti aku masih ada ortu yang harus aku sayang. Kalo aku masih ada tengkaran dan omelan-omelan sama Hun, berarti orang tersayangku itu masih peduli sama aku, butuh aku, dan still care with this relationship. Kalo aku kadang terbosan-bosan sama kehidupan yang begini-begini aja, berarti aku masih ada waktu luang untuk diriku berpikir apa yang akan aku lakukan. Kalo masalah dan hal-hal menyebalkan terjadi, berarti aku masih harus terus belajar sabar (semoga aku bisa ! hahaha)..Kalo hal-hal yang aku inginkan tidak selalu terjadi, berarti akan ada hal yang lebih baik yang bakal terjadi. Selalu ada alasan untuk mengucap syukur.

Oke, jadi aku akan buat daftar untuk diriku sendiri, how to pursuit my happiness...

1. Ngga usah sibuk membandingkan hidup kita dengan orang lain, membandingkan kebahagiaan apa saja yang sudah kita miliki VS orang lain. Cos everyone has their own way of life, and everything happenned for a reason. Being happy isn't determined by comparing with other people around us, but just how we accept and feel grateful for everything we have...

2. Semua ada waktunya. As a smart people, punya otak punya tangan, kita harus mengejar apa yang kita mau. Tapi, ojo mekso.... Ada hal-hal tertentu yang memang bukan waktunya, ditunggu aja, be patient, must be more wonderful then..

3. Sometimes being 'someone meaningful' doesn't mean always being successful, pretty, and something like that. But, some simple things in life you do it everyday, taking care of people around you, being nice, and you are already being meaningful for them.

4.  Tetap semangat dan optimis aja selalu. Di mana ada usaha dan semangat, pasti akan dikasih jalan. Aku selalu bilang, hari esok nggak akan ada yang tahu apa yang bakal dan bisa terjadi. Always don't give up on anything.

5. Find a sweet little happiness on every little things happened. Belum tentu bisa terulang lagi kapan-kapan..

6. Every struggle in you life made u now.

1-6 ditulis di sini, pake bahasa indo, biar aku selalu ingat !!! Ngga suka ngomel-ngomel lagi sendiri !! Hehehe..

Kupikir-pikir, buat orang lain pun, mungkin aku juga udah ada kehidupanku sendiri ya. Aku pun juga udah go on my life with Hun...that's a point...

Oke, sekarang mikirin yang lebih riil aja, apa sih yang pengen aku tuju dalam hidup? Aku harus jadi apa ya sama Hun?
- Successfull couple trader (woo...)
- Baru aja berasa suka masak --> enjoying life being chef (hohoho...) --> harus rajin masak? atau start les masak?
- Traveler's writer --> CORET, karena kere nggak punya uang buat jalan-jalan, apanya yang mau ditulis..
- Woman racer or couple racer... hohoho...bayangin aja keren.. wkwkwk
But, more of that, dream ku adalah being a good wife and mom for my husband, kids, and my family......

Ini kok jadi ngaco ya malah ngomomgim apa.. Anyway, aku harus rajin nulis blog !!!
Semoga rencana untuk tulis review akhir tahun dan resolusi awal tahun nanti bisa terlaksana. Amin o:)

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

See, saw, seen

See what you supposed to see, and don't see what you don't supposed to see. Cos when what doesn't supposed to be see is seen already, you can't deny your heart that you haven't saw it.

And you started to know too much and think much, imagine much and comparing much too....

People said...if what you see by the eye doesn't please you, then close your eyes and see from the heart. Because the heart can see beauty and love more than the eyes can ever wonder...

*wirc*

Saturday, October 27, 2012

What are words...

Maybe it's a bit too late for me to know this thing... I just so touched when i heard "What are words.." song, by Chris Medina. When i know the story behind that song, which is for his girlfriend actually. She had a brain injury because of car accident....

What are words, if you really don't mean them when you say them ?
What are words, if they're only for good times, then they don't?


What is love, if you really don't mean them when you say them ?
What is love, if they're only for good times, then they don't?

Sunday, October 14, 2012

... a Story...

Trust you, means i don't want to remember anymore about your pasts, nor to feel hurt or sad anymore about that, nor complaining to you , or even have a lil worry in my heart.

But, to leave your past and my past behind, and step forward..... .together we travel our life journey... create  our own love story... fill it with ups and downs inside.... And one day, we look behind, and be grateful for those precious story....

*love*

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Love is...

Love is about creating a story together. It may have a plain, nice, sad, emotional, caring, hated, and whatever it may come.. Love is not always about being happy and in perfect condition. It also about being at the most critical point condition. But how you solve your problems together and how both of u try to understand each other...
That"s you called it love-story....

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

We ♥ ❤ ♥

Love is not always what we see in the movie, being haha-hihi and happy. But trial and sadness, teach us what the meaning of trust, sincerity, and toughness. Cos love is not just a magic feeling from the sky bowed into our heart, but we need an effort, after that magic feeling already in our heart. That's called "WANT-to love".

Means.. put "i" become "we", put "mine" become "ours", then set aside our ego, give more receive less, and our willingness to do the all the best we can do for this relationship blended together into it....

♥ ❤  

Monday, July 2, 2012

Promise

Mbengpruttt...
I am crying now while i am thinking our relationship right now. These days i am not too happy and made us not always in good mood. Maybe some are your fault, and some are my own thinking or feeling too much. Then today we talk a lot based on my own bad feeling.

Fact is i dont want to lose you :'( :'( :'(... damn so much...  Sometimes i do hate you so much when you are sooooooo damn "mbencekno". But i still dont want to give up. Still dont want to lose you. Really.....

Thank you for your effort to me. I appreaciate so much. Maybe i cant see or always complain, but i can feel and i want to trust you. Through the good times and bad times i dont want tolose you. Hope you feelthe same with me. Sorry if sometimes i was very childish and like to be angry .
Keep today promise , and i'll prove it to you that i dont want to lose you, even just in my imaginatin.

Thank you for today. Thank you for yesterday. Thank you for the last 2 days. You have been so patient to care me and face my childish. I do feel really grateful for that....Love you....

Monday, June 25, 2012

Still

Kadang ketika aku melihat sekelilingku, ingin rasanya aku tak usah mempercayai semua yang ada. Hidup bagaikan sebuah mainan, sebuah misteri, yang tak tahu kemana akan membawa kita melangkah.

Semua yang ada di dunia ini terasa seperti kebohongan dan penuh dengan muslihat serta intrik. Sikap hati yang bagaimana yang harus aku pegang dalam melihat masalah-masalah yang ada?

Dunia sekitarku yang penuh ambiguitas dan topeng senyum, membuatku menjadi seseorang yang sangat suka berpikir, menganalisa, kadang cenderung impulsif, melankolis, dan mendambakan suatu kehidupan yang sederhana saja.

Asal bisa hidup tentram bersama orang yang kita saling mencintai saja sudah cukup... Perasaan dimiliki dan memiliki serta keterikatan dengan orang yang kita cintai, sambil berbagi hidup sehari-hari dengan damai, bagiku sudah pantas untuk menyandang status "bahagia".

Berbagi hidup dengan seseorang mungkin terlihat gampang. Tetapi berkaca pada sekitarku, mungkin...juga tidak segampang itu. Aku pun juga belum pernah hidup berumah-tangga. Rasanya bagaimana aku tidak tahu. Aku kadang hanya seseorang yang terlalu mengagungkan cinta, percaya 100% dengan kata itu sendiri. Salah kah?

Hari ini aku menulis ini, bukan karena aku mau terus menganalisa dalam pikiranku yang penuh dengan pikiran negatif. Tapi, supaya suatu hari aku bisa membuka lagi catatan ini, dan aku sadar bahwa aku masih tetap mau menjadi orang yang percaya akan cinta.

Masih tetap sama ke-naif-anku untuk mempercayai cinta itu sendiri, dan memberikan diriku 100% untuknya. Aku percaya pada harapan. Aku percaya pada diriku sendiri. Aku percaya pada Tongy-ku yang sekarang kita bersama. Terlebih, aku percaya pada Tuhan.

Support, pengertian, sabar, dan doa. Always and should be never end.

*postingan super-absurd :s

Happy Anniversary 6-months, Mbruttong-y  xoxo..


Saturday, May 5, 2012

May's Hope

I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn how to be sincere. Things go wrong, so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust the people you can trust, and yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It just means you've decided to look beyond life's imperfections. And no one is perfect, that's why understanding is so important.

My story taught me not to always complain (yeah, even so i'm still complain..) and just work hard if i want something, not blame unhappiness on other people, not blame any failures on other people' fortune, stop being moody and bothering people that i love just to make me comfy. Work harder than anyone else, and .not let fear stop me.
Expect the best, be prepared for the worst, f*ck what other think, and do your own thing.
Just be happy with who we are right now.

Enjoy every little things in life... for one day you'll look back and realize they were big things. Enjoy the sun when it all looks bright and shiny. Enjoy the rain and be prepared with your umbrella. An umbrella can not stop the rain, but it allows us to stand in the rain.
Just like faith in God, it may not remove our trials, but it gives us God's strength to overcome them.


(Some quotes that i got... i rewrite...mix and add with some of my thinking... i think it represent what am i feeling and thinking right now.....)

Monday, April 30, 2012

Just Some Quotes

When you pray for others, God listens to you & blesses them. Other times when you're safe & happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.


The most important lesson from a journey is the journey itself. One day when you've already reach the finish line, you can take a look at your behind, see each lessons you have been through. That was a teacher to made you today. So, enjoy every single moment of your journey. Don't get so easy to give up !!

And this one maybe is an answer to my last post :
When you love unconditionally, it isn’t because the person you love is perfect, it’s because you learn to see an imperfect person perfectly.


(・。・;)

Friday, April 13, 2012

Past...

Time flies so fast. Every things happened accompany our journey to grow older, just to make us a better person, a stronger person, and we learnt a lot from that. Even that bad things or good things. Bad things happened NOT to be regrettable, but to be a milestone to push us better ahead. One day, we have to smile and thanks for that.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Kind of Relationship

It's quite a time since my last post. Last month seems i am very often to post. But this month not so intense.

Well,  somehow i just really like to think. And think. And think. Hun said i am thinking too much, and i should stop doing that. When some 'too much' appears, i should immediately shut that thing off. I am trying and sometimes it works. But sometimes when it just too spinning around in my head, i can't stop thinking.

Just like now.

Actually i don't know what am i feeling or thinking or what is bothering me right now. Not so. Yesterday i had some conversation and made me thinking about people's relationship. When i see people around me, i just automatically analyzing their relationship and get the good or bad point from that.

First couple
I know some people who keep their fire in their relationship and they love each other very peacefully. No cheating at all, and they respect their relationship so much. They give all their heart, their feeling, their life completely just to be a soulmate to each other.

Second,
I also know some people who truly in love with each other. They know their partner now is gonna be their future. They respect their relationship, but sometimes they have a lil bit 'naughty' inside.
I realize that people can feel bored or lose their feeling to their partner. So, maybe they had some cheating but just a lil. They know their priority and their limit of the game. My friends, they already married now. So, i think they are settle down now, and they know / commit to their own heart not gonna do that anymore. Cos their time and their life is for their real partner now.

Third,
Some people are not really know what are they doing now. They have a relationship with their partner, but no real direction ahead. Maybe they just think, if we can go on, its okay, so just lets see. While like that, they don't feel really committed to their partner. So, they just can go cheating or have affair behind each other. I don't need to explain too much, i think you all got my meaning.

Well, I don't say that i am very holy or what. We all hope (or maybe not all) that we are the first couple above. But that things i describe above just scared me. Scared to realize the fact of this crazy world. And i hope Hun and i gonna keep our love, our heart completely for each other. Not gonna cheat even just a very very lil. Just believe our love, and trust this relationship.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Planning

I just talk a lil with Hun about "planning". This word for him has different meaning with me. I am so well-organized people, and Hun is not. Even, Hun is very very unplanning person i've ever met. This kind of thing sometimes being a lil disagree for us. I need to lower a lil about my standard, and he also raise a lil about being more well-planned.

For me, i think like this....

Planning doesn't mean to complicating our times, but it means we RESPECT people who stay beside us and things we are doing for...  What i mean respect is you walk on your life is not only for your life. We live in this earth as a social beings. It means inevitably we are always commited to people who stay beside us, like your partner, your family, your friends, your co-workers, etc. So, when we engage them to our time, we have to respect their time too by share our plan or just a simple make a plan !

I think planning makes you know well your purpose, your goal, and your dreams, even just a very simple thing... Not everything or every cases need planning, just a little planning is enough. Cos too much planning without doing is nothing. Action speaks louder than words. But none of planning is also nothing. You won't walk into a clear direction, unless you always have luck in each of your steps.


Each of us can decide when we have to plan or not. Or we have to plan until which step. Muchmore, when we have to tell others about our plan. So, Happy planning ... :)

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Dear Hun.. : Weastern

Western VS Eastern : Weastern 


Dear Hun.. 
We talked a lot about our views of life, relationship, and future yesterday. Especially you concern more about children. I am quite happy that we can share, we can argue, and we can finish our talking with nicely at the same time, esp before we go to sleep. Cos I already promise myself that if we have something to talk, it should be finish talk at the same day before we go to sleep.


Back at our topic. 
I think both of us has each past and condition which create our thought and view of our life. My situation and environment built my character and affect me to live the way I am now. I realize that what happenned in your family also affect you so lot for your view, especially about woman and it is very make sense for you to think like that.


We talked a lot about our views of smoking, clubbing, sex, future children, and etc. I feel that you were so dynamic, very open person, equal, and very "real" --so human -- who have strengths and weaknesses. And how the way we live our life now, I think life is life. It happened and I think its acceptable, even can't judge in a good/bad side. And the whole package of you, the whole package of me, good or bad, I think that's the dynamic point why we fell in love each other.



However it is, I am glad that I know you. Glad that you are my man now. Even though in some views we were not agree, I hope we can get more understanding for each other's views. Sometimes I think you are more open-minded person than me. The fact is not like that. Otherwise, now I think I am too open-minded, maybe.

Yes i know you are open-minded person. For everything you have your own idealist view, but you still can consider for each side views. That's nice. And i like that. But, for western or eastern culture, do i really too open-minded?



By the way, I am proud for the way I have my view now. Well, I don't know the right word to describe what I mean. But, I think "proud" maybe is the rightest one. Its not said that I am proud of my life because I already success or what. I even don't have anything valuable or some good achievement. But I should be proud for whatever it happened in my life, I already passed it and stand still, so that I am now. 


I just feel regret for myself, when i can't respect myself, or can't respect other people. I hope I can always respect my life and each other.



I am proud of people who have a dedication, and passion, for something then make efforts o make that thing work. I am proud of people who can stay and stand for shit happenned in their life. I don't mean that people should have bad problems in life or proud for the problems x_x. If we/they have another choice, maybe just leave so lot shit behind and try or choose the easiest way to continue life. That's absolutely true. But, i do respect for their toughness. 


When i know you more, i consider you, accept you, and love you with this kind of view. I am not looking for someone who are so perfect in all the way he is. I am looking for someone who is so damn real human so that we can together build our way of thinking, our passion, our future, even our silly life.



That's why I am proud of you, Hun :). Since the very beginning. Maybe sometimes we argue or else, but i'm sure you know my heart actually. Maybe you think I am crazy, or too naïve. But its me saying this. And I really mean it...



Hope you feel the same too.. 
Love you My Mbrutz.. XO 

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Dillematic : Family and Respect

I often heard everybody said, we can respect what we have now after we lost it. Have you heard that? I think, it always happened in real world and our life. Somebody said to me too, manage your time well, always walk on your life like tomorrow is your last day you live in the world.

It's late night, and i am very on-the-mood to write down what i just know from my friends and how the way i feel right now. That was about respect our family, especially our parents. I'm definitely not really feel comfortable with my parents for our different thinking and the way how to live our life. I always think, how was the fastest way to can live freely without them. I mean i love them, but i am not fit with their style and i don't want they intervene my life too much.

Very dillematic. Because i don't like their thinking and style, but however they are my parents.Sometimes i think that i am not behave nicely. Even i am not good enough to be a daughter. Sometimes i yell at them. I am angry with them. I am not serving them nicely. Eventhough my heart loves them so, and they know that. I take care of them, but when they behave so strangely i became angry to them or not feeling satisfied with them. I took compare with other people. And, result is exactly another parents are not as captious as my parents. Haha.

I take my friend go home. We know each other quite some time. We hangout together with another friends, but not so often talking. While i'm driving, we chat some conversations, He told me that his parents passed away already 5-10 years ago. I'm not really sure for that. But well...actually i'm quite shocked after i heard that......

First is, for me, he really looks childish and very laid back people. I said it "Just want to have fun". But, who knows, deep inside his life, he must work hard to survive. Because, he has no parents to leaned on anymore. Eventhough i'm not pretty sure how was he exactly, but think that, really don't judge a book by its cover.Because all books have its story inside.

Second is, then i looked back at myself. Do i ready if one day my parents left me too? And my heart say NO. Suddenly i feel that i haven't doing something for them. Even usually i am thinking that : It's not me who want to live in this world. But however i have to believe in fate that i was born in this family. And i have to do something to respect them. Much more, i always grumpy in this family.

Maybe they aren't so perfect parents, but i have to learn to receive their imperfect as family. Maybe i still can't do something big for them. But, i want to start from my heart, to not always so grumpy, much more love and patient to them, and also be nice to them. Maybe i still can't feel so comfortable with their style and thinking, but i hope i can just listen that, not confront them to make them feel ok, but i still stand on my own thinking. I think that's the fair way.

Just simple 'something'. But i hope that will make a better me.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Moments

Its late night.. *again*..
Inspirasi menulis selalu datang pada malam hari... -sambil nunggu print-printan yang gak kelar2 hehe..-

Salah seorang cowok, teman baikku, baru saja mengalami patah hati. Entah kenapa tu ceweknya tiba-tiba ngambek nggak jelas, lalu tiba-tiba bilang udah gak sayang, n bye-bye darling... x_x  Aku pernah ngalamin patah hati, dan tahu gimana sakitnya rasanya patah hati, apalagi gara-gara pasangan kita itu udah berpaling dari kita. Gimana rasanya merasa terbuang, dicampakkan, n feelin so empty... So many words to describe that feeling actually...

Dan, aku tahu bagaimana rasanya dukungan orang-orang terdekat sangat dibutuhkan di saat-saat seperti itu. Satu perhatian sederhana saja, sudah bisa membuat hati tenang. Satu perkataan yang menguatkan saja mungkin bisa membantu dia merasa lebih kuat.

Jadi, kali ini temanku ini, dia banyak banget ngoceh, ngomel, nggerundel ngga jelas, dsb dsb sama aku. Dari masih menggebu-gebu utk balikan lagi, bertanya solusi gimana caranya merebut hati cewek tersebut lagi, cerita sama aku tentang kenangan-kenangannya, sampai mulai merasa benar-benar dicampakkan, dan ngomel-ngomel semua kesedihan hati... yang intinya "how comes??"

Sambil aku nanggapin ceritanya dia, aku sendiri berpikir, -biasa suka berkelana hehe-jadi keinget sama momen-momen dalam hidup ini. Mulai dari kecil, remaja, sampai momen-momen pacaran yang indahh hehe.. Apalagi sambil dengerin lagu-lagu mellow juga. Tambah mendukung deh suasananya..

Rasanya begitu banyak momen yang terjadi dalam hidup ini hanya bisa untuk sekali saja, ngga bisa diulang.. Ironis rasanya pas mikir gitu ya..
Sekalipun kejadian tersebut direkayasa ulang dengan semuanya sama persis, pasti tidak akan bisa berasa sama seperti momen yang ingin kita rasakan tersebut.
Time can't go back..
Time will heal...
Time will make us change, make people change, make your environment change..

But won't change our memories in our minds..
So, enjoy every little moments in our life...

*obrolan malam-malam yang ga jelas juntrungannya hehe..*

will you remember our sweet moments
and cherished them the way i do
how we spent our special moment together
how we used to share it all

will you remember me the way
i remember you, will you be the same
the last time i saw you, you are the sweetest
every moment with you is the sweetest one

P.s : Update at Sept 6th 2013, just read nice quotes on my friend's facebook.. :

"Past is a nice place to visit but certainly not a good place to stay"

Absolutely TRUE !!! Give thumbs if you agree...