Need to explode something

Just 3 days ago, i wrote so nice things, then today i write again not in a good-mood condition.

I still don't know what things really make me angry. Hmm, maybe not angry. Just... a little..... disappointed, or maybe.... not feeling good.
Still don't know too what is the real problem between me and my mind. Coz i can't get our things out of my head. Well, .... i rethink,...is that my mind a problem? Or you and your own character is the problem?

Please, i say to myself. I can do it. Even he isn't really deeply care with my feelings? I'm okay. Or even he can't share everything with me? I'm okay too.

I think again, actually there's no so much problems. But, i don't know why, i just feel that i was only one of your....robot....? I think i make my mood due to your mood, which is sooo moody. When you are happy, you'll be nice to me. But, when you have a problem, you keep quiet and don't want me to know. But, you wish that i know and i can understand. How can?

So, instead of fighting, I keep silence to everything, and i am tired. Why? Coz you always right. I told you what i feel, then you must always have a reason for that. After a fight, then you will say "I am tired of fighting" (seems like you are tired go on with me, and it hurts).

I keep encourage myself. I can do it. We can make this relationship works. It's all just need time. And need my understanding to you and your life.