Burger Time

My Hun is quite a busy working man, and he's can't really take care of himself. And somehow i feel bad for myself, if i can't take care of him too, esp. about his meals, health, and his daily little things. Actually from the beginning, i already decide to be a good girlfriend with cook some foods for Hun, and also practice for my future *wink* haha. But, as i don't have to many spare time and also my laziness, so i am not so often cooking.

What have i cooked for him? If i get a list, number one is Pangsit/ Dumplings Noode, but at first i always make it too salty. Then, Sayur Bening, Pork Ribs Soup, Kolokee, Some Stir-fry vegetables, Spagethi Carbonara, and American Breakfast. I realized that Hun maybe like western food more. So, last friday i decide to cook for him. Well, it's actually i prepare the ingredients, and we cook it together.

I plan to make a burger. "Burger" that word has a special meaning for us. I don't know why, but when we say burger, somehow we say it bu-ger. Without "r" in the middle. And it sounds so funny for us. Then, when Hun came back from HK working trip, i don't know whyyyy, he bought me a huge pack of jelly burger of Aji-Ichiban. x_x

Burger Jelly

Okay, I prepare the burger bun, patty, some vegetables, dressing, cheese, egg, and french fries. Well,at last it's quite delicious i think, but our burger become soooo huge. I'm very happy that friday. That was one of a very nice weekend i spend with Hun.

Agak belepotan piringnya... yg penting rasanya yum yum... ;:)

Love u.. ♥

Miss U x_x

This month went quite busy for us, since the gold's price going crazy  and make this time become the busiest month ever. Like now, you are going fly far away from me here in Surabaya.

Yesterday we had a big fight :'( i don't know what happenned till we can be like that. I am sad, super sad, and don't want to repeat that again for our relationship. Your words were vey deep for me . I hope we can learnt a lot from that situation for the next. I'm so sorry of i did wrong things which make u feel sad. But i do respect and listen to you, not because you ask me. I want to and i want to always and more do that. Hope you trust me and can see my sincerity.

Sometimes things goes wrong and not always be in my way, nor yours. But today i want tonlearn more again again, that love is also about understanding, willing, patience, and not let my ego always win, when things not always going to the way i wanted. I know its not easy, cos i failed many times when emotion  take over our logics, we become stubborn and argue each other endlessly....but i want to learn, cos i have a trust in this relationship.

You dont like to talk a lot  bout your feeling to me, but let me have a time yo more understand you. More and mote i become casually understand te way you love and carenme with your 1001 crazy methods.... thank you for loving me, doing everything for me, and let mebbe tebone in your heart... i reallt dont want to let you dowm.... trust me... and promise me too to love me and thus relationship more and more...however it is...

I am happy you said i became your wingman, your partner, and i still want to be like that still mbengy....

Miss u soooo now, for you very far from me, and cannot use bb !!!!! miss your tickle, miss your crazy fart, miss the way you speak to me rudely, miss your small angry to me, miss your snore, miss you sleep by my side, miss bugerrrr, miss your funny face calling me mbrutty... tongy....

We ♥ ❤ ♥

Love is not always what we see in the movie, being haha-hihi and happy. But trial and sadness, teach us what the meaning of trust, sincerity, and toughness. Cos love is not just a magic feeling from the sky bowed into our heart, but we need an effort, after that magic feeling already in our heart. That's called "WANT-to love".

Means.. put "i" become "we", put "mine" become "ours", then set aside our ego, give more receive less, and our willingness to do the all the best we can do for this relationship blended together into it....

♥ ❤ ♥ 

Pret A Prut

Kinda boring for me now a days. Work doesn't so busy, and nothing much i can do for it. But not for Hun. He-is-very-very-busy now.

Our holiday last month didn't get through very nicely like what we called 'a holiday', cos we had some family need to be cared. So, we spent about first 4-5 days to spent separately at our home. Doing nothing. Oh, so boring ! But i like the way we spent the next 6 days. We do nothing, just spend our time together, cos we can't go far from Surabaya.

Every working day our work need to be monitored till night. So, day off make our mind a lil bit relaxed, cos we don't feel like we are always in a rush. And that things is what we did. I miss the nights we spent together...
And when i think about that, i miss the moment we spent 2days in Malang last July too. It felt very warm for us, fun and nice!! We are very rare to do that kind of things

Well, it's only 2 hours you flied, left Surabaya already, and you haven't landed yet but i already wrote so long about us. Prutty, i miss u soooo xoxo.. Maybe it feels like you fly far away, not like usual just Singapore.. And sometimes "thinking too much" (you called it "xdt" haha) often visit my mind, especially for the sensitive-issue. Hahaha. Well, i always make efforts to manage more with it.

Loving you just teach me more to know and understand about myself, and life.
Never give up.

Promise

Mbengpruttt...
I am crying now while i am thinking our relationship right now. These days i am not too happy and made us not always in good mood. Maybe some are your fault, and some are my own thinking or feeling too much. Then today we talk a lot based on my own bad feeling.

Fact is i dont want to lose you :'( :'( :'(... damn so much...  Sometimes i do hate you so much when you are sooooooo damn "mbencekno". But i still dont want to give up. Still dont want to lose you. Really.....

Thank you for your effort to me. I appreaciate so much. Maybe i cant see or always complain, but i can feel and i want to trust you. Through the good times and bad times i dont want tolose you. Hope you feelthe same with me. Sorry if sometimes i was very childish and like to be angry .
Keep today promise , and i'll prove it to you that i dont want to lose you, even just in my imaginatin.

Thank you for today. Thank you for yesterday. Thank you for the last 2 days. You have been so patient to care me and face my childish. I do feel really grateful for that....Love you....

Still

Kadang ketika aku melihat sekelilingku, ingin rasanya aku tak usah mempercayai semua yang ada. Hidup bagaikan sebuah mainan, sebuah misteri, yang tak tahu kemana akan membawa kita melangkah.

Semua yang ada di dunia ini terasa seperti kebohongan dan penuh dengan muslihat serta intrik. Sikap hati yang bagaimana yang harus aku pegang dalam melihat masalah-masalah yang ada?

Dunia sekitarku yang penuh ambiguitas dan topeng senyum, membuatku menjadi seseorang yang sangat suka berpikir, menganalisa, kadang cenderung impulsif, melankolis, dan mendambakan suatu kehidupan yang sederhana saja.

Asal bisa hidup tentram bersama orang yang kita saling mencintai saja sudah cukup... Perasaan dimiliki dan memiliki serta keterikatan dengan orang yang kita cintai, sambil berbagi hidup sehari-hari dengan damai, bagiku sudah pantas untuk menyandang status "bahagia".

Berbagi hidup dengan seseorang mungkin terlihat gampang. Tetapi berkaca pada sekitarku, mungkin...juga tidak segampang itu. Aku pun juga belum pernah hidup berumah-tangga. Rasanya bagaimana aku tidak tahu. Aku kadang hanya seseorang yang terlalu mengagungkan cinta, percaya 100% dengan kata itu sendiri. Salah kah?

Hari ini aku menulis ini, bukan karena aku mau terus menganalisa dalam pikiranku yang penuh dengan pikiran negatif. Tapi, supaya suatu hari aku bisa membuka lagi catatan ini, dan aku sadar bahwa aku masih tetap mau menjadi orang yang percaya akan cinta.

Masih tetap sama ke-naif-anku untuk mempercayai cinta itu sendiri, dan memberikan diriku 100% untuknya. Aku percaya pada harapan. Aku percaya pada diriku sendiri. Aku percaya pada Tongy-ku yang sekarang kita bersama. Terlebih, aku percaya pada Tuhan.

Support, pengertian, sabar, dan doa. Always and should be never end.

*postingan super-absurd :s

Happy Anniversary 6-months, Mbruttong-y  xoxo..

Dear Mbruttong..

Today is as usual another wednesday, or any other day that i spent together with you. Spending our times with watch dvd while we monitor our a trading at the computer. It's so usual, so common, but i do really enjoy our times together.

Time flies so fast, while we ealized we have been together for quite some months.  April is quite bit hard times for us to synchronize. But later on it continues nicer and nicer.

Maybe it's kinda bit hard to understand me, or the other way, to understand you. But after we found the point to key on these things, i really feel glad. I'm glad that i haeve you.Told you really that i never regret that we go on together. Sometimes when i did wrong to you, i am sorry and i don't mean to do that.

I do enjoy when i hold you tight from your back, or when you so childish ask me to hold you, and hug you. I hate when you tickle me soooo much, but... sometimes i miss that :p and miss your expression when you were so happy to do that.. haha..

Thanks for your effort to do your best. I will really listen to what you say :)..  Know you and being together more and more with you, sad times or happy times, makes my heart really can't be alone without you. Even just when both of us stay quiet each other. I miss your presence. Just be there for me, and i really feel safe....